A long and rambling post

The saying; Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans, is true in many cases. And now, in this moment in time nothing happens, no plans can be made, even if you do are you able to do them in this current situation.

Plus as a fact, you cannot plan life really, it happens. I have had this happen to me so many times. You can make all the plans you want for yourself, but life probably has a completely different set of plans. Everyone has been let down at one time or another when their life hasn’t quite gone the way they would like. I know my life is far from what I had planned and I’m sure a lot of people have had that happen to them, too.

Life molds you as time goes on changing your life as it sees fit. This is not to say that I don’t have a good life, but it is totally different to what I planned when I was young.

in this moment in time, I feel sad, kind of helpless and frustrated at the same time. Depression, I have mild one. A self diagnosis for sure. I think lots of people do at this time. Lots of things contribute to it in my case.

The fact, that I am not able to get a job. I have this feeling, that I don’t know anything or a not able to do anything that is required in the jobs I have skills for. I know I have the skill, but I feel that I don’t. You apply to various positions, maybe get an interview, end up being in the best 2 – 5 people, this is no comfort. Also this relates to the main thing, where am I going to get the money to live. The feeling of being worth something, also in this context.

Covid, it has some effect on everyone I am sure, some more, some less. I have taken it mostly OK, it is what it is. Still, that you are not able to do all the things you want to is restrictive. I am in the good situation that all my family is close and we are able to be in contact. But one of the concerns is that it has caused also unemployment in the younger generation including my kids, so you worry about their income.

Also depression has hit some of my close ones hard, not mildly but severely. It is hard to see how it takes hold of the person and how it resonates to the people close to them. The helpless feeling as you do not know how to help. Action more than words are more effective.

Winter is, and never has been, the best of the seasons, and people who have read my post in the past know this. I have complained about enough. But as winter go this was not the worst by all means. And spring is on it’s way, I am so happy about that.

I’ll stop now. Work on my art and photos to put my mind out of this non productive rambling.

If you read this far, thank you 🙂

Sydney ~2

We were rather tired the first day so we walked a bit, some street shots of Sydney few days before Xmas. Our first day and it was raining.

Sydney ~1

We were greeted in Sydney with this happy dude called Doug and  kids of Leo entertaining the crowd by singing. So here are few street photos from George street. I was sitting on a bench as this little kid slept in his dads arms while mom was doing Xmas shopping. The pretty lady across the street just caught my eye.

Hello, long time no see

It has been a while since I updated anything. I had a lovely trip to Australia, I took so, so, so many photos that I don’t know what to do with them. Editing and trying to post them in some kind of order… I’m stuck, but here is one as I do have to start somewhere. We visited Sydney and had a look  Queen Victoria Building . Rather beautiful shopping center. Amazing thing is, I did not buy anything.

December 2018 ~ 10

Tomorrow, tomorrow I will begin my holiday, yes! Sunshine, we are coming your way!I was in training today and it was boring… candy sweetened it a bit.

How to survive November~29

Almost over, November the grayest month of all. Darkness is so strong, but there has been few nice sunsets too. Here is one witnessed at a small boat pier. Looking the other way you saw sunset and on the other moon rising.

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How to survive November ~12

Monday, what can you say about November Monday? Not much.  Inspiration where are you…. then there is always candles.candle light (36 of 36).jpg

 

How to survive November ~11

Sunday was one more bleak day. Since we got home early this morning, we slept late. The joys of not having small children. Then we decorated. A new wallpaper did wonders to this room. I don’t know if I am trendy or not, but it is new and different. Our cats enjoy the flowers I bought

How to survive November ~10

Pets, big or small to give you affection. Odin came on my lap to have a nap at my friends party. I got to enjoy some views from the 16th floor and nice beverages during the evening… no complaining on this November night

 

How to survive November ~9

Trying to find beauty in the wet and grey day. Droplets always work for me

How to survive November ~8

Isn’t coffee a solution to lot’s of things… how about if we talk over coffeecoffee moment

How to survive November ~5

On way to survive is to listen to music. I took these photos of Michael Monroe performing at a work event I attended. Quality is not that great, but then again we are talking and taking photos of surviving darkness.48948483-620b-40a8-a6d8-e6a7422d8e76-1

 

 

 

 

How to survive November 2018~3

It is that time of the year again that survival is definitely on my mind. The all consuming darkness drains me. I will survive, I will drive into the mist and disappear….

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Abandoned~5

Here are some more details from inside, broken windows with autumn colors also caught my attention

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How to survive November 2018~1

It is that time of the year again that survival is definitely on my mind. The all consuming darkness drains me. I will survive, I have sunshine on the horizon in December. Most likely most of my photos will be by my mobile as the darkness does not really invite you to take photos unless you are in a city. I do not often go to Helsinki, but the day we got the first snow, not officially, it melted ½ hour before it could have been mentioned as first snow. I saw it and for me it was the first snow of the season. I have to admit I was not thrilled about it.  Helsinki railway station in the evening is what I will share as my first post for November.

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Helsinki railway station

Autumn Vibes ~22

Driving from Porkkala in the afternoon we passed this field with the woods in the background  and a river with deep blue water. This sight appealed to me, mostly due to the light, the low light if autumn is beautiful. The lone walker on the road also caught my attention.

Abandoned~4

Here are some details from inside. Stairs

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Abandoned~3

This has once been a great and huge shed. Even the ruins in the condition they are in at the moment are impressive,  at least to me.   After marveling it from the ceiling  I walked inside and what did I see, have a look at the large perspective, details will follow.

 

 

Abandoned~2

This has once been a great and huge shed. Even the ruins in the condition they are in at the moment are impressive,  at least to me.   After marveling it from the ground I walked up to the second floor… no ceiling left, but you can see how huge it has been.